Scattered Thoughts From A Maryland Cottage

Scattered Thoughts From A Maryland Cottage
The Yin and Yang of Thankfulness

Friday, November 12, 2010

Turn The Page... I Believe In Me and I Believe In You...With God's Help

Turn the page....
I've had something on my mind these past few days as I've heard from family,
the holidays are coming fast and furious,
 my son Matt and his girlfriend have decided to stay another year teaching in Korea.
I am asking God to help me write this post and
not have it sound like I am a victim but as someone
that is reaching out to others to inspire.
I grew up in a physically abusive home and married
very young. It seemed safer. Who was I? Who was he?
Who were we? Stayed in a marriage of infidelity for 23 years.

My sons survived and grew. I stretched and bloomed.
Women are strong don't you think?
That's why they don't have menstrual cramps or give birth!
I come from a long line of strong women.
I remarried. Now that I look back -
I have this huge urge to bring men out of their shells.
I've learned a few things. In fact I've learned a lot of things.
Eight years of abuse taught me a lot.
 I'm a strong woman. 
I'm not a quitter.
I watched everything I loved be destroyed before my eyes.
I was disappearing.
I confided in the Lord, I begged Him to show me what was right.
I constantly read my bible. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep.
But I am a strong woman. Joy filled in my heart and soul.
God Loves Me.
I left with 3 days of clothes in an over night bag.
I am healing now. Giving myself the ok to be me.
 Letting God love me. Reaching out to help others.
Talking to the young teens in the high school
health room I work in and trying to line up speakers
 to talk about relationships, abuse, self-esteem.
Turn the page...if you need someone to care,
to hear you - please know you can be safe.
People care. There are resources.
God loves you.
Jennifer   * leave a comment and I will gladly reach out to you

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